On identity.

Today I applied for a new passport. Not my favourite activity in the world, for a number of different reasons:

  1. This passport-less limbo is disquieting. I handed my old passport through a window at the post office and watched a stranger seal it in a bag to be sent off ‘special delivery’ to the passport office (despite the fact that the passport office is approximately two minutes walk from the particular post office I was patronising). Now, for two to three weeks, I wait, bereft of any way to prove that I am who I say I am, or that I have any rights to live where I do.
  2. The cost was not small: nearly £90 for a little book. I’m not sure how I feel about the price to be honest. Perhaps it is a symptom of living in a country with such a prolific welfare system, but I feel irritated by the fact that I’m forced to pay for the privilege of being able to prove who I am, or at least by the fact that I’m forced to pay such a lot. Why is it so jolly expensive?
  3. The photograph rules have changed in the last ten years. Back in 2002, when I applied for my last passport, one was permitted to smile in your passport photo. Not any more. Now one must affect a ‘neutral expression’, which generally causes everyone to look equal parts like a convict, and entirely unlike themselves. My new photograph is not an exception to this rule.
  4. I’m sad to say goodbye to the fullest passport that I may ever have. Pretty much all of the travelling I’ve done in my life has been with that passport, and it was full of cool stamps and visas. I will miss them.

In summary: bereft of identity.


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  • Reply fiona lynne May 25, 2012 at 3:09 pm

    Fullest you may ever have? Goodness, child, you’re only 28. Plenty more stamps to collect yet…

    • Reply ellidhcook June 2, 2012 at 9:00 pm

      I just don’t think I’m going to do as much travelling in a ten year space again, or at least not outside of Europe. Although, the new one should get its first stamp pretty soon (supposing it arrives anytime soon!)x

  • Reply Catie Eliza June 1, 2012 at 12:45 pm

    don’t you get your old passport back though? xx

    • Reply ellidhcook June 2, 2012 at 8:58 pm

      You do, but you can’t use it anymore. And I really don’t like the new picture!

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